I really like this quote as it reflects my current state of mind.
Why? Well, I have recently made quite a BIG decision that leaves my future a little in the unknown. Without sharing my full on life story (that could take a while to type up) this is pretty much the basics:
I was born in The Hague, The Netherlands in 1984 and was raised there by my (100% Dutch) parents. After I finished high school I wasn’t quite ready to go to University yet and I loved the language English so I decided to take a gap year. I moved to NZ at 17 for this one year, attended an all girls school and lived with my mum’s cousins family in Auckland. It was a great experience and I fell in love with the down under lifestyle….. & fell in love with a boy, sigh!
Isn’t this so the classic story :p
So anyways, after my year was up I had to go back home as had already enrolled in University back in Holland and this had always my ‘life plan’. But because of the guy I had met in NZ I was a little “confused”. I went back home and we continued a long distance relationship and he visited me in Europe after about 6 months. We decided I would quit university and move back to NZ to give our relationship a proper go & would see what would happen from there. I ended up being with this guy for almost 7 years and stayed in NZ all that time. We split up about just over 1 year ago, which was quite a difficult time for me. I was never really planning on going back to Europe when we broke up, I felt that NZ was like my home and this was where my life and friends now were. I did need a change of city so I moved from Auckland to Wellington and have been here for a year now.
Over Christmas my parents came to visit me (they do every 3-4 years or so) and ever since that visit my mind has been a little uncertain about what do I want & where do I want to live?!
Soo…after a lot (and I mean A LOT haha) of thinking I recently have made the BIG decision to quit my job in Wellington and go back to Europe for about 3 months. I want to spend some quality time back home with my family and see what life is like as an adult in Europe. The “plan” at this stage is to go back for 3 months (July/Aug & September – summer in Europe WOOP WOOP) and then most likely to move to Sydney, Australia after that
However, for the first time in my life I am not going to set things in concrete (I am quite the planner and organiser if you must know) and just see where life takes me. I have said to myself, Roz keep your options open. If you love it back in Europe just consider it, you only live once and I feel I once and for all need to decide where I want to live..
I need a time out, I have worked non-stop since was 18 and have got a good job now but I need time to just “be” for a bit and think about the things I want.
One of the things that’s on my “to do list” over this period for example is attending a professional make up course in London for a week! Just to see if makeup is something I want to pursue further & because I have such an “obsession” with makeup (duh).
Anyway, this was probably quite a long story and may not have interested you but felt it was quite a big decision and wanted to share it with you all.I will be leaving NZ at the end of June and time is flying by! (sooo much to organise) But I am excited (and a little scared) for what the future could bring me!
Who knows right? The world is my oyster :)
HAPPY HUMP DAY! xoxo
Wow, that’s exciting! I’m a big planner too (maybe it’s a Roz thing?!) and so it’s good you’re going to just go with the flow.
You already know, but: I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!
xoxo
He Roz! Even een berichtje om je te laten weten dat ik een trouwe volger van je blog ben, en dat ik het enorm goed vind dat je doet wat je hart je ingeeft, waar ter wereld het je ook heen leidt.. Enne, ik ga ervan uit dat je me flink bijspijkert op make-up gebied als je in Nederland bent!
Thank you so much for sharing some of your story! I enjoyed reading it. I think change is great and I know you will succeed anywhere you are! Best of luck with your new decisions, I look forward to your updates :)
Decision making is always so hard! Hopefully you’ll have a blast in Europe (I know I do when we holiday there every year!!) and who knows, you might just want to stay. If anything you deserve a break from work for a while!!!
Thank you all for your sweet comments!
I will keep you updated on my movements :)
Kind of excited about what’s all ahead!
xoxo
Good luck with everything!! I’m sure you will learn so much more about yourself and meet so many great people!!
This is a lovely post Roz. You just have to remember to follow your heart and listen to your gut instict :)
PS you were brave to move away from your family at 17 x